Words Trigger Meaning, Memories, And Emotions

A personal reflection:

It is peculiar how language and words in general trigger certain meanings, memories and emotions. How I see words is a bit different than general, as I often ponder how words touch me differently depending on from what angle I see them, and in what meaning I put into them. When you for example see how claiming one thing is "better", what does that mean really? The word "better" obviously is in regard to some configuration of anyone using it as to promote their view of what is "better", but it implies something else being "worse" right? Well it was just one sample of how the mind tend to divide and hence so many configurations in an intertwined reality can create tension spots where you have polarities of different opinions on what is "better" or "worse". So in any combination of these factors one has to find a middle way, where there is some better for one side and some better for the other side of it, while accepting some "worse" on both sides for it to work.

Negative versus positive, to me? Is a factor which can be difficult to be capable of processing as quick and easily as others due to my diagnosis and sensitivity for stress. Often many factors is at play at the same time in my brain with these words. You have factors which some think, as with "better" and "worse" as "positive" for them, while they might be "negative" for someone else, again we see polarities which depends on whatever side of any position you'd like to take towards whatever matters. This however can also generate tension between "forces". So many language constructs and you get a chaotic mix of forces that might be difficult to cope with once you dive into the depths of understanding complex conflicts anywhere. These might be in any dimension of size, like anything from a part of your physical body which is sick or damaged, to a whole world of different belief systems, political opinions and controlling entities.

Balancing forces, well I'll write more about this as I am coming back to some of the same issues as in this article.

With the power of words as thoughts, one can wonder what they might produce, and words used responsively and intelligently towards a positive outcome is of preference usually, still we as a society have fell for a strategy in the past of using words to divide. How can we use words to connect and find solutions. Ok this needs more work, but I do have difficulties when it comes to what other's see in words, and what I see, as I often end up seeing several things, but when I am stressed I tend to focus on some negative aspects of it, "critically" but then non-beneficial really, energywise. That is the change, looking for lessons and learning, and letting go of the negative implications and memories, that is a real challenge but one that is necessary.

Depression Awareness

Depression can take on many forms. Here I would like to share some of my experiences with it from a long time ago. I do not consider myself as depressed now really, there are other things I deal with though, but yeah, depression to me is a state where you can not manage to cry or laugh, where feeling happy is something the mind of some reason thinks is not possible. It can come sneaking into you over time, and it is all from going for a long time having negative thoughts, or also it could be several other things, like loss of someone you care about, or a relationship of any kind. It could come from severe trauma too, but then there are other factors also to consider. Well, depression to me was an experience of a close to total lack of motivation, a state where you just wished to escape your mind but couldn't, where existing in a moment seemed impossible, yet you couldn't escape it. I could write a lot about the feelings, but for now that is enough.

The Solution For Me

My solution to get out of depression back then, after two years of being in the above mentioned situation, was to start believing that as a matter of logic; I was human, and humans are capable of feeling happy, it was illogical that I shouldn't also be. It took a few months where I held this belief firmly, repeated it to myself, worked with myself by listening to Anthony Robins tapes and other things, and then one day I was in the shower and suddenly it felt nice to shower. I ended up showering 4 times a day for a while, and that was the start for me on the path to get out of it.

Notes On Medicines

I was given a lot of different medicines which I feel did more harm than good, awareness of this might be a good thing, some medicines promise relief while not really being a good solution at all. Maybe I could write more here later. Depression is tough, if you are a sufferer of such, I know.

For God's sake, realize that a lot of psychopharmaca has potential "end-of-the-world" consequences, so you really need to consider the effect on people and their ability to both trust and treat each other in proper ways.